STOP ASKING ME TO GO BACK!.

p/s: you are only making me to walk further and further away. In the end, let go.

♥ 2E1 Chalet! :D


Yo! Just came back from class chalet yesterday :D 2 days and 1 night :D:D Hahas. After much requesting to stay overnight at the chalet, mrs ong finally allowed us! woohoo~ Altogether they were 18 humans stayed back (me, daphne, suling, canice, shamala ,rain, kahyarn, minxue, hadi, arvind, hong zheng, hilmy, bo qun, hairee, nawaz, lemuel, jin min and jun jun) Lols. We didn't sleep the whole night, we ton at the beach and it's freezing cold. And we had been talking about judgement day throughout the night. Because arvind was down there what is judgement day and all sort about judgement day so minxue, hadi and hilmy had been explaining about it. Yea.. It's fun thought. Hahas.

Minxue and gang had been having religion talk throughout the chalet. Than minxue talked very qi tong until when i playing poker also can heard her saying Jesus and God, etc.. Not bad aye? Lols. Anyway, i managed to watch sunset! :D:D:D Actually can watch sunrise too but plain to lazy to walk till another beach which was like so dame far away )): But at least i manage to watch sunset ^^. I guess that's all bah.

♥ The Awesomeness of God.

In Chemistry, He turned WATER to WINE.
In Biology, He was BORN without the normal conception.
In Physics, He DISAPPROVE THE LAW OF GRAVITY WHEN HE ASCENDED INTO HEAVEN.
In Economics, He disproved the law of diminishing return by feeding 5000 men with TWO FISHES AND FIVE LOAVES OF BREAD.
In Medicine, He CURED THE SICK AND THE BLIND WITHOUT ADMINISTERING A SINGLE DOSE OF DRUGS.
In History, HE IS THE BEGINNING AND THE END.
In Government, He said that HE SHALL BE CALLED WONDERFUL COUNSELOR, PRICE OF PEACE.
In Religion, He said NO ONE COMES TO THE FATHER EXCEPT THROUGH HIM.

The Greatest Man in History
Jesus had no servants, yet they call Him Master.
Had no degree, yet they call Him Teacher.
Had no medicines, yet they call Him Healer.
He had no army, yet kings feared Him. He won no military battles, yet He conquered the world.
He committed no crimes, yet they crucified Him.
He was buried in a tomb, yet He lives today.


♥ The Power of Prayer.

A young man had been to Wednesday night Bible Study.
The Pastor had shared about listening to God and obeying the Lord's voice.
The young man couldn't help but wonder, Does God still speak to people?
After service he went out with some friends for coffee and pie, and they discussed the message.
Several different ones talked about how God had led them in different ways.
It was about ten o'clock when the young man started driving home.
Sitting in his car, he just began to pray, 'God...If you still speak to people, speak to me.
I will listen.
I will do my best to obey.
As he drove down the main street of his town, he had the strangest thought to stop and buy a gallon of milk.
He shook his head and said out loud, 'God is that you?' He didn't get a reply and started on toward home.
But again, the thought, buy a gallon of milk.
The young man thought about Samuel and how he didn't recognize the voice of God, and how little Samuel ran to Eli.
Okay, God, in case that is you, I will buy the milk.
It didn't seem like too hard a test of obedience.
He could always use the milk.
He stopped and purchased the gallon of milk and started off toward home.
As he passed Seventh Street, he again felt the urge, 'Turn Down that street.'
This is crazy he thought and drove on past the intersection.
Again, he felt that he should turn down Seventh Street.
At the next intersection, he turned back and headed down Seventh.
Half jokingly, he said out loud, 'Okay, God, I will'. He drove several blocks, when suddenly, he felt like he should stop.
He pulled over to the curb and looked around.
He was in semi commercial area of town.
It wasn't the best but it wasn't the worst of neighborhoods either.
The businesses were closed and most of the houses looked dark like the people were already in bed.
Again, he sensed something, 'Go and give the milk to the people in the house across the street.
The young man looked at the house.
It was dark and it looked like the people were either gone or they were already asleep.
He started to open the door He started to open the door.
Lord, this is insane.
Those people are asleep and if I wake them up, they are going to be mad and I will look stupid.
Again, he felt like he should go and give the milk.
Finally, he opened the door, okay God, if this is you, I will go to the door and I will give them the milk.
If you want me to look like a crazy person, okay.
I want to be obedient.
I guess that will count for something but if they don't answer right away, I am out of here.
He walked across the street and rang the bell.
He could hear some noise inside.
A man's A man's voice yelled out, 'Who is it? What do you want?'
Then the door opened before the young man could get away.
The man was standing there in his jeans and T-shirt.
He looked like he just got out of bed.
He had a strange look on his face and he didn't seem too happy to have some stranger standing on his doorstep.
'What is it?'
The young man thrust out the gallon of milk, 'Here, I brought this to you.'
The man took the milk and rushed down a hallway.
Then from down the hall came a woman carrying the milk toward the kitchen.
The man was following her holding a baby.
The baby was crying.
The man had tears streaming down his face.
The man began speaking and half crying, 'We were just praying.
We had some big bills this month and we ran out of money.
We didn't have any milk for our baby.
I was just praying and asking God to show me how to get some milk.'
His wife in the kitchen yelled out, 'I ask him to send an Angel with some milk.
Are you an Angel?
The young man reached into his wallet and pulled out all the money he had on him and put in the man's hand.
He turned and walked back toward his car and the tears were streaming down his face.
He knew that God still answers prayers.

p/s: Forwards mails from friends.

I'm really too tired of quarreling everyday.
And I'm tired of seeing them mood change after quarreling.
Mood swing sucks.
Everyday quarrel must add in words like divorce and move out.
Ain't you tired of it?
You don't, but I'm!
You're trying to control my life?
Fat hope.
Thinking that not giving me allowance can control me?
Dream on.
For i can earn my own allowance.
You said you were happy that if i moved out.
Than i guess if i runaway from home, you won't even bother.
I'll move out of here as soon as i can support myself.
I mean it.
You think you can use church to threaten me?
Hahas, funny.
Let me tell you this, IT'S NO USE!
&& my attitude changed not because I CHANGE CHURCH.
It's because of this HOME.
You complain/consult your friend i don't bother.
But ask them to keep to THEMSELVES.
I had enough of your leader kept asking me go back.
Than your leader kept telling you I turned bad after leaving.
Please lar wherever i go i still worship the same God isn't it?
Unless you dare tell me it's different.
Also, stop using church to pressurize me.
By doing so, you still won't be able to "rule" me.
I hate people using church as the excuses/threaten.
For it'll in the result causes me to leave church.
By than time you won't be able to threaten me again.
I hope i won't reach that limit.
So, KNOW YOUR LIMIT.

I had fallen down the cliff once again.
But i tried my very best to hold on to the rope.
It's snipping and I'm slipping off.
Will you be there for me once again and pull me up?
Sometimes i really need your attention.
Sometimes i really hope you could understand me.
Sometimes i really hope you know what I'm going through.
Any second there's a chance of me slipping off.
I'm looking for help somewhere somehow...

BIA-NESS.

Alright, my previous skin corrupted. How GREAT! Did a
new skin but my photobucket isn't working =.= So yea got
to use this skin temporarily until my photobucket is back
to normal. #$@$@%^$^#$!#$ LOLS.

Aright that's all (:

p/s: I can't help but to say, you are indeed really bias.

Yo! I'm posting again but deleted the previous post because some human want a detailed one! Hahas. So yea got to write a superb detailed one for her to see~ :D

DAY 1 [9 November 2007]:
Had to reach school by 6.30am and guess what? I woke up late you know! But thank God i managed to get a cab in time and reach school on the dot and also that they fall in late. xD Lols. Was kind of excited because this year North View the camp coordinator and ma'am sharbana was in charge of the secondary twos plus this was the first time i went Pula Ubin! Heehees (: Ma'am sharbana asked me and madeline to call up all those who were not here when we fall in because we were the only two brought phone~ =.= After we finally set off, everybody was kind of afraid and scared because we worried that we cannot grouped together but true enough, we were all seperated ): Luckily, i can still go around with some of them :D We took a boat from the jetty and reached Pula Ubin but.. we got to walked [or should i say we RUN most of it?] all the way from the jetty to NPCC campsite which took around 30 minutes i think >,< style="text-decoration: underline;">

DAY 2 [10 November 2007]:
It was a total torturing man! First we had low elements and rock climbing. Dame, i can't reached the top! ): After that had land exploration which is like a competition that contains trekking and games. It was dame tiring larh, we trekked half of the Pula Ubin! Actually need to trek the whole Pula Ubin the but not enough time so we trekked only half, LUCKILY but it was quite fun thought. Lastly we had kayaking but sad to say that we didn't kayak! ): Only floated in the water a while than must come out to shore and washed the kayak for the others due to the time~ Not fair! But anyway, washing the kayak was fun :D Hahas. && i realised that boys seems to be weaker than girls :X Really larh, only two girls were needed for the double kayak but 4 boys were needed for it instead. How strong were they sia~

Secondary 2s ands 3s had combined campfire but it didn't turned out to be interesting which turned out to be very dissapointed and boring~ First time had such a boring campfire, even the school campfires were much much more better than this :/ After that went back and washed up to prepare to sleep as we were all very tired. We girls slept in the corridor outside the CIs and officers rooms while the boys slept in the canteen because earlier when we go shower that time, a snake was found in one of the tent so because of safety reason we didn't sleep in tent. Had sentry duty at 1.30am, luckily i can wake up xD After that i slept all the way till 5.45am because i was dead tired.

DAY 3 [11th November 2007]:
HOHO. Everybody was super duper happy and excited because it's going home time~ :D Had PT, un-pitched the tent and area cleaning before we went home. My group washed martins and hahas we had a lot of fun because we seems to be playing although it was very rushed because my group from 15 people dropped to 6 people only [went to help other group]. Like what hell~ We because of shortage of helpers and in the end the CIs also helped was to dry the martins while we washed it. So kind and good of them :D Thank You worh~ After that had camp closing ceremony than we took van to the jetty instead of walking. LUCKILY ^^

Reach singapore at 12pm and we went to buy ice cream while waiting for the bus to come :D Ma'am khoo treated us ice creams too so in the end we ate two ice creams ^^ We were dismissed beside the school bus stop and daphne, bao xin and i went north point macdonald to have our lunch~ We eat and chat till 3 plus than go home. While waiting for bus, one guy in front of me talked to me but i don't know him. Hahs. He's quite handsome and cute plus his smile super sweet ;D We talked about ATC stuffs and if i not wrong his from area 2 too! But he pon-ed camp, i wonder he secondary 3 or.. Lols. So yea i alighted and he waved to me and said bye bye with a big smile (: The moment i stepped into the house i went to bath and go sleep at 4pm.

TODAY
I slept fomr yesterday till today and only woke up at 10.15am in the morning :D After that went to lemon's house to spent my afternoon and eat ^^ Went home at 6.30pm and i'm now blogging.

As i was reflecting in order to post what happened during the past few days, i suddenly felt so so so empty inside my heart. Thinking that this wasn't the place that i belong. Feeling that this wasn't what i used to feel or maybe i'm just still not that opened enough. Just somehow just somehow ~ you know... I no longer used to be in the present of God's love.

p/s: I don't wished to have any attention from anybody .

I really missed those days and experiences during
encounter weekend
Those hug, loves, understanding, warm and tears.
Those understanding till such the extend that you
kind of know what i feeling and thinking.
Even prayed for me when i don't think i need it at
all and every time you prayed for me, i will tear...
Those loves and warm that you gave me when i
needed it the most when i was at the lowest pit of
my life.
The hug that you had given me touches me deep.
All these i guess i won't experience it again.

Everything is changing; every century year month
week day hour minute and second.
Everything there will be one chance for you; is either
you grabbed it or missed it.
It's too late to regret when you did something wrong
for what is done had already been done, it cannot be
undone.
It's too late to apologies when you hurt somebody for
the scars will always remain although it seems okay.

As time goes by, i learnt what is right and wrong.
Also, had learnt to handle emotion too.
But still, i have yet to learn how to walk out of the pass
and step into the future.
I'm still me, but not the same as the past.

p/s: when i cry, will you appear infront of me and give me a hug?

Here comes a true story for the day Specially for
those who don't believe that miracles do happen! :D

                    
❤ Raising a Dead Fan to Life! ;

(in my bedroom...)
WAINEE:On the fan lerh, so HOT!
ME:Okay~
(my fan not moving although it's on :/)
WAINEE:O.o?
ME:My fan sot sot the. Got to wait for it! -.-'''
WAINEE:Sighs.
(after a couple of minutes...)
WAINEE:Waseh, really very WARM ):
ME:LOL xD
WAINEE:I wonder if prayer works? *uhmm*
ME: Hahas. You try lor :D
WAINEE: Eh eh eh... In Jesus Name.......!
(the fan spinned one round and stop!)
WAINEE & ME:(laughed like no tomorrow! :D)
ME:Aye, should say full prayer larh! :D
WAINEE:Hahas! Later scaly it works!
ME:LOLS! Maybe if you have FAITH! :D
WAINEE: Right~!
ME:You know the cross is looking at you!
(the fan spinned for one round and stop again! xD)
WAINEE:Alright. Dear Lord, I pray for the fan to work.
             In Jesus name i pray, AMEN!
(the fan start to work and never stop! :D)
WAINEE & ME:(LAUGH LIKE NO TOMORROW~! HAHAS. :D)

                          THE END! :D

Hahas. I know it sound like a fairytale larh but
horh, it's 100% chop chop true okay! :D

♥ I don't give a dame! :D

我不吃软也不吃硬.
只要你对我好, 我也会对你好.
你越反对我做, 我越要做.
What i want, i want it.
What i don't want, i mean it.
I hate forcing.
我的容忍度是有限的.
别和我玩, 因为你玩不起.
这就是我.
I know i'm rebellious and stubborn
But i don't give a bloody dame about it.
Know your limit.

p/s: It's time for me to take a break! :D

Yo! My blog is back to life again~ :D Today early
in the morning 8.45am met my lemon at ntuc to
buy some ingredients for making mian fen gui and
dumplings :D After that she came my house and
we began to make until like 12 plus like that than
we finish making? Lol. Yea, we took lots of time
doing it but the overall products taste not bad larh,
although not really up to standard larh xD Too long
never cook le, standard dropped a lot worh~ We
met erina at 1.30pm to accompany her eat lunch and
we laughed a lot :D After that went back my house to
prepare ourselves before going off to service ~

While on the way to meet shuyi, we met this group of
ah beng dame cute and cool larh. Hahas. Especially the
short one [oops] Woah, his hair dame cool, his fringe
straight straight the than the rest spiked up. So cool
larh :D We alighted at city hall as usual than the train
came already so we walk our walk to the last cabin last
second door[or is it first cabin?] than you know what?
The ah beng run to the last door in order not to miss the
train. So cute larh, first time saw ah beng running for train~
Hahs. When the time they run past us, one of them
said "hi~" to us. Than i was eh? They were short one and
the stripped one was ginning to themselves. They simply
can't stop smiling! Lols. :D Too bad, no chance to snap photos.

After we met shuyi, we saw this two guys dame kaobei lor.
They purposely want to find trouble~
[Lets name the two guys A plus the victim B]

(B walked passed them to alight at Bedok)
A: Oi, say excuse me larh asshole!
B: What did you say?!
A: Say excuse me larh!
B: Excuse me larh! (very unhappy tone.)

Like what the hell larh, purposely bully B because he's not
a singaporean! Such a person also exists @_@ Than at
Tenah Merah we saw a group of boys quite beng walking
towards us and guess what? They are shuyi friends and we
went like eh? Hahas. Very cute larh the journey. Shuyi
pronounced brown which sounds like bra and Bedok sounds
like bull dog. Hahs, dame cute larh she! :D

The service was so so i guess. Wasn't really touched or
anything but during some part of the sermon my skin like
kind of stands up, i wonder why?... But wainee was happy
caused my hand was raised higher than usual :D Hahas.
After service me, wainee, shuyi and jianhui went off together.
Journey was fun and laughter too~ Got one part is wainee
accidentally dropped her phone than i said " aiyo, just now
dropped wallet, now dropped handphone.." Than jianhui was
like don't say i never accompany you all horh and he purposely
dropped his phone too. Follow up is i dropped to accompany her
dropped phone, people around us were like keep staring at us non
stop man! Hahas. && shuyi very cute, she scared of people who
too white in the skin colour :D Funny. We ladies alighted at bishan
to eat dinner. After dinner we prayed for shuyi~ You know, wainee
first time prayed for people like so woah! Keep up the great job
babe! :D

Was wanting to post this yesterday but i typed le than delelte because of some reason.. Sill i feel
like posting it so ya.
Why does people only came to the conclusions when they lose something? It's completely senseless
when you only start to treasure things after you lost it.

It's too late to treasure me now,
for you had already let go of my hands indirectly
note, you didn't lose me but you let go of me.
You used to be all i ever needed but not now
because i decided to let go and survive on my own
If you ever realised that you don't understand me
it's because i don't trust you.
I felt nothing towards you
nothing at all.
My faith had been raising and dropping at the same time
like so... you know? yea.
It's another thinking day for me today
was thinking about church than let to some human and to another human
but i stop thinking soon after that for i don't wish to think too detailed, so yea.
&& i realised i HATE bias-ness xD

p/s: I'm not refering to anybody (i guess)
But if you think so it's you means that you are gulity.
For gulity heart confesses. :D

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