♥ Maybe, i'm just not a good friend.

Madeline BFF <3:
Hoho. Didn't expect that you would know that i was actually
referring to you or should i say that you would even read my
blog! Lols. && You better reduce your addiction for psp larh!
Cause i dont want a zi bi and retard sister plus best friend
you know! Opps :XX Ahahas. One more thing, you better
stop emoing and do stupid stuffs horh and im serious okay!
If not are i slap you ah! :XX Muahahahas. Alright, love you
lots! :D

Erwin :
I know you wont be reading this but still, i want to say thanks
for purposely missed your bus stop and sent me till my bus
stop [: Sorry that i was rather cold to you in the bus just now
because i wasnt really in mood. && Thanks for cheering me
up! Take care {:

Someone :
I know you surely wont read this plus we didnt contact ever
since the say i left fcbc. Really sorry that i left you alone
there and rejected going church with you with lots of excuses.
I not pretty sure whether you knew that i left church already.
You should know, i left church doesnt mean the end of our
friendship. But still... Never mind it's all the past. You never
tell me about your dad... If you told, i would definitely go
down. You said i had changed a lot. Changed till no longer the
girl you had knew in the beginning. Alright, i admit it. Im
seriously no longer that holy girl that you had knew in the
past. I changes as the world changes and because of that im
never perfect. Maybe, im just not a good friend.. Sorry.

Lemon <3: Yo :D I bet you wont expect your name to be here
right? Hahas! I promised you that i will be going for service
this saturday means that i will go no matter what {: Even
though i had something before that and duty in the afternoon
but because of you i changed my duty to sunday lerh! See i so
good :D Lols. Take care horh and see you soon~ Missing you! :D


Alright, finally im back to posting :XX Hahas.
Was rather moodless recently but wont be really blogging
down the reasons why.
School was like... No comments.
Girl's campcraft competition is coming this saturday..
Really hope that We will complete everything in time! ^^
Jiayou; Kambateh! :D
Studies, sucks! ):
Family, *sighs*.
This sunday is my school the pushcart sales!
I doing sunday duty from 10am - 6pm!
The whole day! :XX
Hahas, must come down support me if you are free!!!
Alright dont know what to blog le.
So, byebye {:

♥ Sorry, blame it on me.

It's all my fault letting you under so much
pressure and dragged into the conflicts
because of me.
They hate me not you, so you need not
to be the middle person between us.
I dont mind because i know we will
always be friends forever and friendship
will not be shaken.
It's not me not wanting to forgive and
forget about the past but them.
They see me not happy, what can i do?
I had already let in a lot because i dont
want quarrel with them anymore..
I really thank God for having you as my
best friend in school and sister [:
I really glad to know you..
Remember, if you need somebody there
for you, just tell me and i will be with you
i promised.
You are not unwanted nor forsaken by
God my dear.
God did not hate you.
It's not your fault, it's mine.
I'm really sorry.

♥ Nothing to blog about.

Simply bored so i did some quizes..

○ How emotional are you?
You are apathetic: Who cares, right? You're just not an emotional person, we know you have them, but you don't like to show them or you just don't care about most of your surroundings. That's fine most of the time, but it can be a bad thing. It's ok to cry, or to be really happy, everyone is like that and you have no need to be so closed.

○ What kind of teen are you?
You are emo: You are an emo, let's face it, you crave attention, you want people to notice that bandaged up wrist of yours with a blood stain on it. Just....try to keep going! I'm with you!(not)(or maybe i am)(nah, go die lol jk)

○ What is your mental age?
Your just starting to discover your self. You like to play, have fun but also get in to a little trouble.

○ Are you happy?
You are bliss: This is dangerous, you are in a potentially good place. Is there something you are avoiding? Are you okay?
"Know thyself"

♥ Retarded Kris!

Hohoho :D Today is a mad day!
Went church with kris, wainee and victoria.
After that went amk hub nebo eat.
Than went go and kris come my house cause
she dont dare to go home cause so dark.
She scared of ghost? Lol

Let me tell you how to avoid a police when
you are tonning out :D [credit to ****!]
P/S: not me horh! im not that retarded :p

1. Always prepare a cup noodle infront of you when
you are out.
2. If you happen to see a police car pass by, ignore
and continue and eat noodle!
3. When the police approaching in your direction,
slowly walk away to a nearby HDB staircase and
hide.
4. If you suai and kana found by police, than
the police ask you what you doing here, tell them
going jogging. [in cardigans and skinnies with a
handbag! :D]
5. If the police dont believe, tell them you going
down to cross the ZEBRA crossing. [the cardigan
is in black and white stripes!]
6. If the police dont believe again, act retarded
and start clapping your hands [eg. do cock eyes
then stick out your tongue]
7. ... TILL THEY FREAK OUT !!!!!!!

Let me tell you how to avoid a police when
you are tonning out, "SLEEPING" :D

1. When you saw a police car pass by, pretend sleeping.
2. When the police try to wake you up, die die also
cannot open your eyes!
3. When you finally "wake up", start to sleep walk and
if the police chase you, start tickling him until he falls on
the floor :D
4. After that, ask him how was his dinner and stick out
your hand to hire a cab. [your eyes still closing~]
5. ... After that i bet the police will sent you home and
your name will not be recorded!


MUAHAHAHAHAHAH >:D

♥ Sucks.

Thinking that this happy and loving family i
have now can last forever.
But, i was wrong.
Everything somehow went back to the past
worst yesterday..
Mum and dad quarreling after i step into the
room wanting to do my tons of homeworks.
At that very moment when they quarreled,
i cried ever since so long.
And how can i concentrate doing my works?
Suddenly i felt so lonely, helpless and hopeless
all on my own.
What can i really do?
I'm really taking in too much stress and soon
i won't be able to handle it anymore.
Studies so busy and stress.
Results dropping rapidly like never before.
Teacher scolded me for absent without valid
reasons and she called my mum.
My mum instead of helping me, she said the
truth that i overslept and don't wished to go
to school.
I purposely overslept is because of who?
But i got no right to say anything, don't expect
me to say my mum things out right?
CCA is tiring.
Family is heartbreaking.
&& I'm suffocating.

A type of pain that is unexplainable.

♥ It's all Your fault.

Yesterday minyi and aloysius come my house
bai nian [:
Than my mum waited for them till she go sleep
le you know~
And in the end guess what, i'm the one giving
out the red packets as instructed xD
Than that aloysius disiao me saying woah, you
married le worh.
Damn him! Hahas.
After that they were slacking at my house till
like nine o'clock like that i think
After that went to amk hub to meet minyi friend,
Junjie which i sort of also know him?
Lol. Saw him in atc last year and same group
some more lor.
Alright, after that headed to golden village to watch
ah long private limited! :D
Highly recommanded! :D:D Ahahas.
We wanted to watch 11.20pm the but no more seats
so we bought the 12.45am but still got to be
separated.
Luckily the two strangers who separate us willing to
change seats with us so that we seat together.
The show ended around 3am like that.
After that cab to khabit macdonald and eat supper
breakfast. Lols
And you know while we on the way back fom ang mo
kio to khabit we kana police check. o.o
I was like shit three underage and one overage
But luckily nothing happened just record down our
particulars only than let us off. -.-
After that went macdonald and ton till like 4.30am
like that but aloysius went home first cause his mum..
Than after that junjie and minyi come my house slack
till 6.30am than we went down playground slack.
You know, i realise something girls can ton better than
boys! :D Ahahas.
Junjie was like a zombie by than and met alvin at the
playground also half zombie. Lols!
After that slack slack a while till 8 plus like that than
accompany minyi wait for 811 than go home sleep! :D
Woke up at 3 plus like that than after that nothing to
blog le.

You know, it's all your fault!
Yea like Whatever..

♥ Happy Chinese New Year

♥ Penknife;

Previous post deleted cause i find no reason
saying so much now.
I only have one last sentence to say, you are
no longer the you i had knew in the beginning.
Or maybe is i had changed.
Or maybe i'm just too sensitive.
Alright you should be glad that minyi said this:
If you let me choose between Jianhui and
Debbie, i'll choose Jianhui.
But if you let me choose between Aihui and
Debbie, I rather choose Debbie.
From this you should know where you stand
in her eyes therefore i need to be a middle
person again.
Thinking is it worth doing so but even if it's
not worth, i still got to do it.
Speaking up for you somehow becomes my
natural reaction.
I blame nobody but myself.
I never knew you mean so much to me and when i knew it,is the day that i lost you.Maybe it's true that you will only cherish somebody after you had lost it.Do you know i cried when the moment i knew i lost you.But i bled more seeing your e-mail.You know, your words make me think that you don't even understand us. Thanks for those you had done for us and those beautiful memories that we used to have.

♥ Maybe I just don't belong here.

Alright. I think I'm just being selfish without thinking
about those around me.
If i really left, what happen to those that "follows" me?
Though i really find no reason to stay in but i still got to
think about the others, the consequences .
But if i really don't belong here, than i think i should
leave for there's no point staying when i not suppose to
be here.
I mean maybe, just maybe.
A change of system to me actually is fine with me for i
was once in this system before so is like repeating the
storyline again only in different venue.
Adaptation and time is all i need now.
Just give me some time and i believe I'll be back soon.
God is always there helping me even though i ignored
him and without fail i felt him helping me through all
my troubles.
I shall tell myself stop being so emotional for it don't
worth my time and tears.

Nothing meant to be forever
Promises don't always last
Life changes as people around changes too
It's time to grow up
Time to accept and adapt to all the things around us
No one is perfect
So i blame no one except myself
It's time for a change
Got to stop being naive and be independent
Say it and mean it
Stop giving empty promises
Sisi, you need to grow!

Rely and trust hurts me once again and i shall never step into it anymore.

♥ Resolution'08

I believe you are too dumb to understand how we
really feel and what we actually talking about.
Am i wrong right?
This time round i'm really walking away from
the truth you gave me.
Doesn't this sentence seem familiar?
Yea, it's from my skin.
This spiritual walk of mine seems to be repeating
itself though it's kind of different but the "reason"
behind it is the same.
I though i can forget about the past but i realised
i can't.
This sudden change brings back the memories.
It hurts deep recalling.
And the words you said hurts just somehow.
Trying my most best to hold back the tears from
the bottom of my hearts but i failed and i cried a
little.
Maybe i'm just too childish and naive till the
extend that i trust and rely on you for support
so much.
You broke all your promises that you had once
said to me/us.
Do you even realised/know that?
And you fulfilled none of them.
How great.
You once said you will fight for us no matter what.
You once said you will never let us go.
You once said you will help me complete my
resolution'08.
You once said that you will treasure us.
And more.
But what happened in the end?
It's all empty promises.
Don't ever promise anybody anything when you
can't fulfill it.
For it hurts the person when you didn't fulfill it.
Promises are only made when you can fulfill it
for sure.
Promises are not meant to let the person feel
happy/secure.
Promise what you mean and mean what you
promised.
We lost you and you are no longer ours.
Kiss Goodbye.
&& Thanks for those memories.

I tore away the resolution'08.

♥ Is promise meant to be broken?.

You know what i hate most but still..
Maybe you had forgotten.
Recall hard what you had promised me
And tell me which of it have you fulfill before?
Or even those you didn't fulfill.
Do sms me when you know the answers.

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