Patient has its limit.

Seriously i really don't understand,
what you all trying to do.
IF these turns out worst,
don't blame me turn my face to you.
Is like what she said wasn't wrong.
Because you think,
if everybody had done their very best,
will this even happen?
Don't ever try to judge a person,
because neither are you perfect.
If you work hard enough,
you would get what you deserve.
There is no such thing as biasness.
Sometimes even if you are not good enough,
you will still get what you deserve.
You deserve it because of the respect you gave
and your seriousness in your work.
I really still can't understand why are you all
still fighting over the Chair and Vice-chair.
These two places are for those who deserve it.
If you work hard enough, you will stand a chance.
There is no such thing as if you are closer to them,
you will get a higher chance to be in that position.
Maybe you are just jealous about her potential,
thats why you said all these are because of biasness.
I didn't accuse you but you prove me that.
And i shall watch a "movie" on monday.
Hahs.

THUNDERSTORM.

This year seriously sucks.
Firstly, the damn family.
Secondly, friendship problem.
Thirdly, sucky studies.
Fourthly, campcraft competition never get into final.
Fifthly, no marksman.
Sixthly, which is losing you.

I cant bear to lose and change you away.
Really ._.
I hope that what happen today wasnt true.
You treat us like your children and shower us with
your love, care and concern.
But we always didnt reach your expectation and made
you disappointed even thought you didnt show it.
The thoughts of losing you makes me cry.
I really wished for miracles to happen and that you
will still remain as our "mama" ):
If you are gone, im so going to quit..

I wanted to blog like four days ago,
but always cant find time.
I wanted to say a lot but now i forgotten.
Never mind i shall stop here than..
Ciaos~.

♥ What is my purpose of life?

♥ Stone heart.

Today was really a very tiring day.
In the morning went for campcraft competition.
I never expect that we can't finish in time.
Some cried but i teared a little and hold back my tears.
I was totally disappointed, especially in myself.
I really wished that i could rewind time! ):

After the competition met up with minyi and we went bugis eat.
We ate pastamania! ^^
Than accompanied madeline down to national libray,
cause she dont know how to go :XX

After that headed down to expo for service.
Wasnt really in mood to go.
But minyi is going so yea nevermind.
I was moodless throughout the service.
So sorry if i had showed any attitude.
Service is boring.
I was like no feeling throughout the easter service.
Not even a single tear can!
First time never cry in easter service.
And is like yea whatever.
I dont bother actually.
But i regretted that i never went down.
Because minyi actually wanted to go,
but i refused to go down.
Plus she never tell me,
if she had told me,
i surely would accompany* her down the can!
*Is accompany not anything else.

God, sorry that i rejected your calling today.
I know you called me but i refused.
Just somehow i cant bring myself to you.
I still find it hard to rely on you once again.
I find it even harder to go back to you again.
My faith, trust, love, etc are gone.
Yes it is gone.
Once was a on fire girl but now im not.

What Mak Si Si Means

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life. You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip. People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

I started to hate you.
But I'm controlling myself not to.
Trying to try it one last time.
But i simply can't put myself through.
I just let go of the rope,
I been holding on for so long today.
Or maybe should i say it snapped?
Thinking back i might seem childish.
But I'm really tired.
Challenges around me are way beyond
what i can really handle.
The world is moving fast and I'm still
lagging behind.
Finding it difficult to continue and fight.
God, I'm sorry.

It's the last day of holiday
and i have yet to touch any of the homework
or should i say i cant even do!
HELP! >,<

♥ Teardrops lullaby.

Will you be there and help me out when i fall?
Will you hold my hands and say everything is
going to be alright?
Will you guild me through and be right there
for me when i lost my journey back?
Will you cheer me up when I'm down?
Will you lend me your shoulders when i cry?
Will you appear in front of me when i need
somebody to be there for me?
Will you be able to bring fun and laughter,
peace and joy whenever i see you?
Will you do anything and everything just
because of me?

♥ Leave me alone.

Camp -> im totally dissapointed in myself.

CA1 result -> no comment.

It hurts the most when:-
Friends accused you.
Your family don't understand you.
You can't do what you are expected to do.
You had lost something/someone you had
treasure a lot.

Tears rolling down like rain drops on the ground.
I'm totally hurt.

♥ What's more can i say?

I'm a phone call and sms away when needed BUT;
I'm not a good friend.
I'm not always able to be there for my love ones.
I'm always neglecting my love ones.
I'm always so busy.
I'm always breaking promise.
I'm the one to be blame.
I suck.
Maybe because of that,
friend comes and goes in the life of mine.
It's my fault.
But still you can leave a sms or give me a call
when you need someone to confront to
even though i cannot always be there immediately
when you want to see me..

Who can answer these?
Who am i?
What should i do?
What is the definition of friend?
What is the definition of love?
What is the definition of life?
Where do i belong?
Where should i go?
Am i a good friend/sister?
Who can i rely on?
More to ask but hard to say.
On my way finding keys to my questions
which i always want to know the answers.
And i believe that i will find it one fine day {:


Anyway lets talk about something else.
NCO camp is coming xDD
And my march holidays doesn't seems like
a holiday because i'm like busy till~ :/
9 days, 5 days occupied with CCA than the
rest of 4 days need to rush through homework
and project.
Sad can!
Lol.
Pushcart sale is like...
Didn't earned much :XX
Campcraft competition is postponed due to
raining and changed to 15 march.
My class reputation is getting worst and worst.
Don't know why teachers must give so high
expectation for us.
&& Which school's school rule got say cannot use
mirror in class?
Use mirror in class got wrong meh?
Some more is relieve teacher can ._.
Now my school rules sucks even more!
Cannot even use electronic devices openly after
school and got to use it secretly -.-
I'm so not looking forward for my CA1 result slip.
Because i knew i did very badly ):
Uhmm let me think still got what to say..
Oh ya classified shoot coming soon and hopefully
i won't shoot bird! xD
Lols.
I want get marksman! :D
Okay larh i think no more le {:

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