.Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Beloved beloved beloved.
Thought i dont know why you would suddenly said that to me
But i know you care.
I know you want to know me better
Frankly speaking i don't anti him
Just that i dont really talk to people im not really close to
Thought we had gone through so much together
The closeness is just not there
All we talk about is church and sometimes studies
Beside that we got nothing to talk about
Probably I'm the one at fault
I know i had changed
I tend to talk lesser and become more anti social
Maybe because of that i smile lesser
I only talk to those that i close to
To me the definition of closeness
Is someone i can talk about anything under the sun
You are one of them
I don't really like to talk to others about what I'm going through
Not because i don't trust enough
But probably because that's not my type
I don't really like to share what exactly I'm going through
Maybe I'm just being a attention seeker bah
Just like you had said
Just tell yourself that you are a happy girl
You will be happy
I kept telling myself that i need nobody
Maybe because of that causes the change of my attitude
I'm just using things to distract my attention
So that i could see what to do as the day passes
Sorry if i had pissed you off.
9:25:00 PM
.Monday, May 26, 2008
SHOOT BIRD.*Sigh*
8:02:00 PM
.Saturday, May 24, 2008
不知不觉
眼泪又不听话了
不知为甚麽
我又哭了
我的心真的好痛
好痛好痛...
10:40:00 PM
.Wednesday, May 21, 2008
5th January was the the day i made my resolution
Till today a lot of thing had happened
And i had long given up on the resolution
Was once a promise
But now was not.
You see a cheerful girl in front of you
But actually behind the back
She is not okay
At all.
But she refused to admit she's not okay
This is her
The stubborn girl
Who like to keep things all by herself.
You will never able to understand her
Or maybe you can't
Because she refuses to say
What she had gone through
And what she is actually going through.
11:51:00 PM
.Monday, May 19, 2008
Suddenly i feel so scared
So awaken
So helpless
I need a breathing space
Im suffocating
HELP.
10:23:00 AM
.Saturday, May 17, 2008
Feelings that is indescribable
Thinking that is complicated
Recalling that is hurting
Running away from reality
Things that i cannot overcome
I just want to runaway
I had been through too much
I just couldnt understand
Why why and why
Im getting weaker
Emotionally, mentally and physically
Please hurt me no more
Maybe i just cared too much
Maybe i should just ignore the surrounding
Maybe i should just end my life
Maybe im just being too sensitve
People may think its not something serious
But its never as simple as you hear
Im not good at words
To describe how i feel
And what im going through
The past is real
Nothing can be done to change it
All i could do is force myself to move on
I never forgotten those promises that i had made
And promises that people promised
But i just got no more strength to carry on
If i just laid here
Would you come and find me
And take me
To somewhere
That i should belong
And never let me fall again
11:40:00 PM
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92775295 no longer in useAnything call my house no, 67525845Or leave a message in msn.Will reply you asap.
2:55:00 PM
.Friday, May 16, 2008
Heyo! :D
Okay im really bored at home for two days!
I'm so not looking forward for my SA1 results
It's so sucky
I'm so going to mug during june holidays
To brush up those that had been taught
But who can mug with me? ._.
Lemon will be away to malaysia ):
Awww i'm so going to miss her!
Anyway, changing number soon! :D
Maybe not planning to give to everybody?
Aiya i dont know larh :XX
You are back but my heart had gone.
12:29:00 PM
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Your Life is 73% Off Track
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If you're honest with yourself, you have to admit that you often feel like you're living the wrong life.
It's a pretty easy conclusion to come to - because it seems like not a lot is going right.
Consider finding a life coach or mentor. You need some encouragement in turning your life around.
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11:27:00 AM
.Wednesday, May 14, 2008
You are a Brainy Girl!
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Whether you're an official student or a casual learner, you enjoy hitting the books.
You know a little bit about everything, and you're always dying to know more.
For a guy to win your heart, he's got to share some of your intellectual interests.
A awesome book collection of his own doesn't hurt either!
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You Are a Caramel Crunch Donut
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You're a complex creature, and you're guilty of complicating things for fun.
You've been known to sit around pondering the meaning of life...
Or at times, pondering the meaning of your doughnut.
To frost or not to frost? To fill or not to fill? These are your eternal questions.
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You Are A Realist
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When it comes to romance, you tend to take a realistic approach.
You believe that love takes time, and it's something you have to work hard for.
A bit cynical, over the top romance tends to get under your skin.
Your heart is difficult to win ... but it's totally worth it.
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Your Birthdate: March 24
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You understand people well and are a natural born therapist.
A peacemaker, people always seem to get along when you are around.
You tend to be a father or mother figure to friends, even to those older than you.
You enjoy your role, and you find that you are close to many people.
Your strength: Your devotion
Your weakness: Reliance on others for happiness
Your power color: Lilac
Your power symbol: Heart
Your power month: June
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You Act Like You Are 22 Years Old
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You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel like an adult, and you're optimistic about life.
You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
You're still figuring out your place in the world and how you want your life to shape up.
The world is full of possibilities, and you can't wait to explore many of them.
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You Have Low Self Esteem 60% of the Time
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While you sometimes feel good about yourself, you tend to struggle a little with self esteem issues.
It's not about changing who you are, it's about accepting your faults. You just need to be less critical and demanding of yourself!
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You Are a Social Blogger!
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Your blog is more of a semi-private affair for your friends.
It's how you keep in touch... sharing stories, jokes, and pics.
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What Your Face Says
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At first glance, people see you as driven and ambitious.
Overall, your true self is reserved and logical.
With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react.
In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.
In stressful situations, you seem cheerful and optimistic.
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10:18:00 PM
.Tuesday, May 13, 2008
I won't break
Down this way
I will hold on for one more day
If you'll help me make
Myself feel
Something so much more than this
Something that's real
I'll live, I'll love, I'll carry on
But, god I miss you
Tell me why
Make me see
How my giving up giving in isn't what's best for me
You know I've tried
But, I am terrified by all I should believe
I need to know to carry on
Pretending I don't notice that you're gone...
9:53:00 PM
.Wednesday, May 7, 2008
It's too early to say
And too hard to think
All the broken empty bottles
Are just reminder of the past
But i thought i should tell you
I can put back all the pieces
And go back just like the past
But they just don't fit the same
Nothing is worth losing it
Especially the chance to make it right
All the hopes and dreams you made for me
Went down the drain of heartbreak reality
I can't say that i blame you
But you can't blame me too
How can i show you if you're not here?.
It's all too late now.
10:50:00 PM
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Hunters are out to hunt,
Not out to save.It's so dumb of me to believe you.Today papers sucks like hell!
It's really a sucker can.
I'm so going to flung my physics
I did the whole section A
3/4 of section B
And left section C completely blank!
There goes my marks
Damn it.
Tomorrow going to be another day of hell
Chemistry and E maths paper 2 can kill!
But i have yet to study for it
Just no mood to
So i think i will flung it too i guess
Wish me good luck for my dooms day
Hahs.
9:11:00 PM
.Tuesday, May 6, 2008
Okay i know i shouldn't be here this time
I should be studying my papers
Even though tomorrow is physics and geography
But i don't feel like
I'm so bored
Till that i went to read through my previous post
As i read through my first post
I got stuck
And i wish to retry it
Once upon a time
There is this little bird
Flying towards the beautiful heaven
But one fine day she stopped flying
She is too tired of flying
And meeting so many challenges
Just when she give up
Here comes her beloved
Brought her along to fly with her
As they were flying
Here come this bird
Promised to guide them in their journey
Without doubting so
They fly together
Just as everything when well
Here comes a thunderstorm
Separated the birds
And they walked their way
But still the little bird and her beloved
Friendship never break
The little bird was injured and stop her fly.
Fuck larh
Whyan't there be peace in the family?
KNN.
6:40:00 PM
.Monday, May 5, 2008
STUDY STUDY STUDY
Its bursting my brain!
CMI >,<
7:05:00 PM
.Sunday, May 4, 2008
Alone in this house again tonight
I got the tv on
But the sound turned down
I have never be the kind to let my feeling show
Cause i thought that being strong
Means never lose your self-control
I'm still not drunk enough to let go of my pain
I held on to my pride
So that it won't fall like rain
It is going to hurt bad
Before everything gets better
In the past
I use to need no one
Or maybe everything was so great
Till that i never needed anyone
But those days are gone
Sometimes i feel so insecure
So distant and obscure
Tonight i wanna cry.
All by myself.
12:09:00 AM
.Friday, May 2, 2008
Once again we sit in silence
After all that is said and done
Promises can be made easily
But not easy to fulfill
Nothing changed better
But instead it got worst
Distance between us is too far to bridge
Pretending nothing had happened
Denying the truth that we knew
Something just went wrong
All the magic is gone
What left behind
Is just a shadow of memory
I can't go on make believing
我闭上了眼
把世界都隔开
等你把我推下悬崖
我害怕什么
连我都不明白
就算有泪也哭不出来
命运却如此坦白
还能说什么
还能做什么
在这茫茫的人海
虽然充满了悲哀
除了把脚步再迈开
不管走多久
不管飞多远
有谁能躲开
这种宿命的安排I don't wanna cry.
7:22:00 PM
.Thursday, May 1, 2008
I build my pride up
So that i wouldn't shed a tear..
9:57:00 PM
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Today's horoscope:Real problems require real solutions, not just window dressing. You have to get to the root of the issue and face the truth about what is really going on here. The time when you could just smile and pretend that everything is okay has long passed, and you need to admit that things have gone in a direction that could be best described as disastrous. The good news is that you have the power to change it -- you just have to get up and get going! Start making the changes you want.
p/s: I believe in horoscope which i shouldn't. But is all the past.
8:44:00 PM
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My brain can contain no more
Whatever i study just cant go inside
Shall i like just flung my papers?
No i cant
Sisi keep going on
You can do it
Can i really?
I need some breathing space
Really
Or i will breakdown soon
I believe.
8:19:00 PM
