.Tuesday, November 20, 2007
I'm really too tired of quarreling everyday.
And I'm tired of seeing them mood change after quarreling.
Mood swing
sucks.
Everyday quarrel must add in words like divorce and move out.
Ain't you tired of it?
You don't, but I'm!
You're trying to control my life?
Fat hope.
Thinking that not giving me allowance can control me?
Dream on.
For i can earn my own allowance.
You said you were happy that if i moved out.
Than i guess if i runaway from home, you won't even bother.
I'll move out of here as soon as i can support myself.
I mean it.
You think you can use church to threaten me?
Hahas, funny.
Let me tell you this,
IT'S NO USE!
&& my attitude changed not because
I CHANGE CHURCH.
It's because of this
HOME.
You complain/consult your friend i don't bother.
But ask them to keep to
THEMSELVES.
I had enough of your leader kept asking me go back.
Than your leader kept telling you I turned bad after leaving.
Please lar wherever i go i still worship the same God isn't it?
Unless you dare tell me it's different.
Also, stop using church to pressurize me.
By doing so, you still won't be able to "rule" me.
I hate people using church as the excuses/threaten.
For it'll in the result causes me to leave church.
By than time you won't be able to threaten me again.
I hope i won't reach that limit.
So,
KNOW YOUR LIMIT.
I had fallen down the cliff once again.
But i tried my very best to hold on to the rope.
It's snipping and I'm slipping off.
Will you be there for me once again and pull me up?
Sometimes i really need your attention.
Sometimes i really hope you could understand me.
Sometimes i really hope you know what I'm going through.
Any second there's a chance of me slipping off.
I'm looking for help somewhere somehow...
11:15:00 PM
I'm really too tired of quarreling everyday.