I don't denied i have attitude problem
You all don't like me, i long know
And i also know sometimes i gave you
all attitudes for no reasons.
But look, if you treat me good, will i give
you attitude?
I don't give attitude to those who are
close to me and treat me good.
Even those weren't as close i wont go
like diao them or find them trouble right?
But of course didn't say you did so.
Of course im not always that fantastic
Nobody in the world is perfect
Unless you tell me you are God.
Everybody have their good and bad
And their choice of friendship

I'm no longer that Maksisi who always
lose the temper that easily like i use to
be.
If i'm, i had already lose my anger in
school today but i didn't because i find
no reason to do so.
I will only lose my anger when you really
cross over my limit.
I don't admit i still have attitude problems
I'm changing but still i won't be 100% chop
perfect you see.
That's why friendship have different levels.
Because different people can accept different
people character and attitude.
If one can tolerate one's attitude and character
and understand them most likely they are
very close friend.
Ain't i'm right?

Alright. I know i side tracked .
All i can say now is you dont like me, i can do
nothing to it and all i can is to accept it because
i cannot make everybody to like me.
Unless you tell me everybody likes you?
No one in the world is being like by everybody.
But i'm more than happy that you had told me
why you all dont like me for when i know i can
change.
After all still thank you for telling me the reason.

It's still your decision to decides your thinking.

♥ 对不起 , 请问你是谁? 我不认识你.

Today is a mixture of moods day..
PE sucks to the hell.
Like what the lor..
Had hight and weight than when to hall to join the
others for PE.
But guess what?
We went out, than whole load pumping position down.
What the
I don't mind doing pumping actually but i hate that
stupid PE teacher who is like "Oh, you all not doing
together/not counting, count from zero again."
Damn him larh repeated saying this don't know how
many times lor
Say what if you all don't cooperate, YOU WILL GET
SUSPENDED.
Hah, so funny.
Get suspended because of PE? What a joke.
This year PE completely sucks!
I rather had PE like last year than changing it to
what we having now.
Like shit.
Every week PE only warm up warm up #@%$%@$

Chemistry was another sucking subject
Actually i dont hate the subject i think
But i hate the teacher :XX
She can't even teach can?
And she loves to complain lots and lots.
I bet i can pass my test even if she didn't teach.
Why? simply because she go page by page in the
textbook!
Might as well i go read up the pages myself right?!
What for want a teacher who cannot teach?
Even thought she is from AJC?
&& her attitude today superbly sucks.
Last week she dont us we got worksheet to do
but she didn't state on the board there's TWO!
Does worksheet means TWO? Maths fail ah?
Or should say english fail?
She say what is your fault and responsibility to
find out how many worksheets you having.
Why the half of the class have it and you dont
have?
All those who never get the worksheet remain
standing and i'n not going to teach today.
Like what the
Damn her can?! %$^%&%$%@$^%$^#@#@

After that was geography, another sucky one
the whole class already not in mood already
thanks to that particular teacher.
Than teacher still shot shout shout at us..
^#$^$%@%$^%^%$#%$#^#%$^%$^$

Recess time got sudden spot check again..
This time round not attire but to check whether
we got smuggle food a not.
Like what the hell why always 3E1 must be the
first class to be checked?
3E1 doesn't mean anything!
It just a label of a class and why can't they treat
us like the normal class?
Why their expectation is always so high?

The whole day i enjoyed most is E maths! ^^
Mr Ho still the best! :XX Lols.
I realised something, Mr Ho can't shout!
&& he's so damn cute and funny xD
So caring also lor.
He was like "if you all dont understand what i
teach in class, do come find me and i will arrange
my time for you. even if it's late at night i will
still teach you. Because my time is all yours!"
So caring and good teacher right? Hahas.
How i wish he really was our form teacher :XX

After school had life science workshop.
As expected, it was damn boring and i fell asleep
during the lecture again :XX
After that went to find madeline at the concourse.
Hahas that's when my mood get high. Lols.
Spending time with them was so funny lor.
Madeline ah Madeline~ =p hahas.
okay larh that's all :D

The smile and trust between us had gone. Didn't expect that this day really came and didn't expect that i really enter that message when i actually suddenly dont wish to. Maybe this is fate and maybe i don't belong there. But still i thank you for the moment i had spent there..

♥ 因为你的无所谓, 所以我才选择离开.

Yo! :D i'm back to post xD
Friday training was quite alright.
Had fun but before fun was tiring :XX
Campcraft competition is reaching~~
Boy's team at 15 February
the day after valentine's day
how sad?
Girl's team at 22 February
JIAYOU JIAYOU worh! :D
&& We will WIN the war!

Yesterday and today was a homework day ):
Got so much homework to do till cannot go out.
Still left articles to do i think?
than still have physics and geography to revised
studies in sec three life is so so so difficult
having question marks in almost all subjects
where's my tutor?
i dont have one.

Siann. Tomorrow have the stupid life science
so damn boring till i dont know how to describe
&& LEMON, i realised i miss you so ):
hope to see you real soon~

it's all because of you. i didn't change, it's you who had changed. You are no longer my support and rely. Let's go back to the beginning where we don't know each other at all.

Today school was as usual boring~
You see for yourself and you'll know.

- English lesson:
Didn't had much lesson, had filing
but i forgot to bring file today so yea.
- Chemistry lesson:
Miss koh was going through page by
page in the textbook and all we need to
do is underline what she want us to. I
really wonder can i pass my chemistry
a not lor..
- A maths lesson:
Mr Ho is relieving mdm lee for a month
for form teacher duty, a math, e math,
cpd and pg. He can teach cause i can
understand what he saying. Lols. Today
he teach matrices and i manage to
understand what is it about :D
- Biology lesson:
Erm can say didn't learnt any new thing
bah because mdm rina is revising about
organisms. But the slides she shown is
interesting [:
- Chinese lesson:
It's once of the most boring subject this
year =.= Suppose to hand in the chinese
project today chinese culture but i didn't
hand up cause i don't even know what is it
about lor and i did it before in sec 1! What
the...

Very boring right?
I can almost sleep through out all the lessons
But the most most most boring is life science
workshop!
I think it's simply a waste of time and money
I don't even think it's interesting and i didn't
learnt anything from it also.
So what do you think?

And and horh..
I hate a boy in my class! @_@
You know cause my class is sitting in threes the
cause we have 44 students and i'm sitting on the
left and he's sitting on the right with my friend
sitting in the center.
Than horh he very irritating the lor,
Very time ask stupid and lame questions like
Teacher why m-1 work out like this and why
must find identity matrix?
Is like what the ....
Plus he's also very super duper selfish and only
care for himself plus listen to what teacher say
ONLY.
Got one time cause me and my friend haven't
buy the english book as it's out of stock but he
don't want to share it with us until when teacher
ask me questions than he act act than lend his
book to me because he scared get scolded?
So what if his smart?
He come up from academy from sec 2 so what?
%$#$%^#!@@#%#$^%$&@$$%
I HATE HIM!
&& he super in buddist ( how to spell huh?)
He kept talking about buddist this and that
and me and my friend both christain will go
against him directly.

Him: You know ah our this life depend
on what our life is in the previous life blah blah
blah....
We: Sorry we don't believe in this type of things.
My friend: You're so superticious
Him: It true and you got to believe it you know...
We: Sorry the bible didn't say so and we won't
believe in it unless otherwise stated.

Is like so the ... I just can't simply stand him!
I will sure go crazy if i continue sitting with him
He is like so so so... I don't know how to describe
the feeling also. =.='''

Shall stop talking about him, it simply make my
blood boils..
Anyway walked madeline home after workshop
She insisted to walk under the rain and we did.
Lols. And we laugh like don't know what like that
while we on the way back.
Like some siaozabo walking in the rain and
laughing like nobody business like that xD
But it was fun thought :D
How i wish i can stay under the rain longer
but it simply stop after i sent madeline home
drenched in rain washes all my unhappiness away.
I want to be drenched now.

Sometimes i really wonder,
Why does teachers love to tell relieve
or new teachers that 3E1 is the best
class in the level?
Does it really mean that the first class
means the best class?
We are humans after all you see,
So nothing is perfect ain't it?
Why can't teachers treat as like the rest?
Expectations are way too high to be cope.
Good attitudes, set good examples, good
results etc..
Are all they ever wanted us to achieve.
When we didn't reached it, they scold.
And is all the same all scolding with
similar words.
"You all are 3E1! And i expected you all
to have the number one behavior. You
all should be a shame of yourself for
having this kind of lousy attitude!...
blah blah blah"
ZZZ, i'll go crazy one day i bet >,<

&& i want buy phone!
but no money.. )):

Life is so stress,
School, CCA and family...
This year isn't a good year at all
I'm afraid i'm letting go soon (real soon).

❥ NPCC rocks! :D

Today had CCA open house and i was late for 15 minutes when i was meeting madeline :XX
Sorry lerh i not purposely the xD
Went to help out at the booth and was late for fancy drills.
But luckily ma'ams and sirs never scold x)
Today got around 10 CIs came i think or maybe more?
If i not wrong 7 from our school than the rest are from other schools the..
&& I look superb wierd in pants can?! xD
Didn't get to pratice and recall before the performance because when to give flyers with terrance at the gate there.
Some changes were made and i almost did everything wrong for the first round :XX
Luckily not obvious!
We performed 4 round i think?
Sec 1s parents said our performance is nice ^^V

But than~
Don't know which uniform group horhhh
Sent people to follow my sec 2s cadet while they explaining what npcc about to the parents but know what they did?
The 'people' snatch them away!
That one still never mind but they even went to our booth and snatch people!
What the hell.
They damn overboard can?!
But luckily at the booth there got CIs to persuade them.
They even cheer cheers to criticize us
Make CI face turned black :/
BUT still~
we got 65 people registered for npcc! Woohoo~! ^^
Anyway mr chan today said that our unit got a very high chance to become a gold unit last year and even if we are not, we are very close to it!
I want it to be a gold unit!
So that we can proved them wrong!

p/s: I didn't said which cca is it so yea unless you want to admit it? o.O

School was kind of boring today :/
Lessons was still kind of okay...
EXcept chemistry! >,<
I hate chemistry, it's just so so so
the complicated.
Can't even understand what the
teacher talking also...
After school had life science work-
shop which is like damn boring~
i fell asleep throughout the lecture.
And this whole week life science
workshop are postponed to next
week! =.=

Sian i don't have english newsapaper
at home and i need to do article and
hand up tomorrow... ZZZ

Life just seem so lifeless, meaningless, boring and complicated to me.

Today's a happy day? Ha.
Don't really wants to go service today
But yea i still went..
Service was quite good.
Can sense God's presence strongly
And my leg is trembling..
I tithed half of what i have today
Which is the larges amount i had tithed before (:
Saw evelyn, wanyi, waiteng, gwen, shuhui and
even minghui but didn't call him.
After that went ate with wainee and went home.
i'm a happy girl? Ha.
I hope i'm.
crying nights with dry tears.

I hate the first day of school and that's final!

Today is a horrible day for me. Nothing went right! @_@
Okay larh not really all things didn't went right i guess...
Reach school around 7am and met madeline at the canteen.
And i was told to wear pe short when i reach school like
what the hell, i didn't wear!
But nevermind larh cause she also last minute than know.
&& my class is at the fourth floor, which means the highest
level!
Like what the hell, bag so heavy than need to climb so high!
This year form teacher is mdm lee, she teaching e maths, a
maths, cdp and pg which means i'll be seeing her 11 periods
per week!
But she's a good teacher thought.
Now school dismisser change to 2pm! What the hell. ZZZ.
Heard from mr chan that triple pure not going to be easy,
it's not the simple memorising and jotting down notes.
It requires lots of practice, understanding but of course
memorising is needed too!
Like that sure die the! I wonder how to survive this year :/
My resolution i guess under studies i can't do it :X
Anyway, i don't wish to talk about it also..
You know, my class tallest guy is like 185cm or slightly
above! So tall can?! And it makes me look so short! >,<
After school went buy books that's needed tomorrow but
guess what, i bought two wrong books! =.=
Never mind changing it tomorrow (hope can be changed)
Rushed for NPCC training and today's training is just
rehearsing songs and cheers.
&& i'm still not used to be called sec 3! (most of them also)
Also not used to see classmate wear long pants xD
By the way, i think i got to buy NP pant and skirt. ZZZ
Cause it's like terribly cannot be authored >,< ):
So yea, and i need my skirt this friday!
Which is like what the hell, how am i going to get it sia?!
Maybe going beach road buy bah if have but i don't know
where is it :XX

Stressed, headache, troubled.
It's somehow so stress till i feel like crying but i can't.
But than, i don't know why i'm stressed also.
I only know i'm simply down and moodless.
Maybe..
Just maybe..
I going to give up my resolution.
I already said maybe so doesn't mean i will okay.

Yoyo! :D
*Sighs* tomorrow school reopen~ xD
A new year had started once again..
Anyway, shall post about yesterday and today.

Yesterday:
Early in the morning went out with minyi to plaza
sing to buy clothes.
And we bought one blouse each (but is longer than
blouse and slightly shorter than dress xD).
After that i went home and minyi went ang mo kio
to meet sky and co. to go escape.
Reach home, used computer a while and met with
wainee for lunch :D
After than help wainee deliver homeworks to
victoria than went north point buy things, after
that went wainee house to pass her things.
Went home, used computer and met minyi again..
She made me jealous! Lols. Joking joking xD
Hahas, she was carrying a bouquet of flower with
minnie mouse when i saw her.
So nice and adorable can? Hahas.
Went to eat at long john than after that went walk
walk around.
And she managed to ask my mum to allow me to
overnight at her house when i can't!
Waa~ Mummy ahh..
So yea when her house than join her condo
countdown party :D
After that went to sit at the side at the swimming
pool (eh wait, forget to tell you the water is warm
the!)
Cool right? Warm water in swimming pool.
Sat down there for around one hour than decided
to went back her house.
Just than as we walked in the cold water of the
swimming pool, minyi slipped and fell into the
water with her handphone in her pocket and is
like OH MY GOODNESS!
So yea we hurried back home to dry her phone,
expecting that it can still work.
But it only appear white screen when we on it
after we dry it from inside out.
She was kind of dissapointed and out of
randomness she told me to pray.
So i did, prayed for the phone to be alright.
&& We ton through the night xD

Today:
Early in the morning miracle happened :D:D
God answered my first prayer of the year!
Minyi phone can work when she on it in the
morning which is like a miracle can?!
Anyway, early in the morning we walked to
sunplaza ah mei cafe to eat breakfast.
Than after that walked to canberra park to
play swing.
After that walked back to sunplaza to eat ice
cream at macdonal.
Than after that went star factory to play but
no much game so home sweet home.
By the way, bought my books just now and i
only managed to buy 5 books which were
already so heavy!
I can't imagine if i bought all! xD
Still got more than 10 books out of stocks :XX
Okay larh will post until here, want go sleep le.

A old year had past and a new year had just begin...
Also means it's time to begin my resolution :/
And i don't have confident that i can complete all of it :X
Hoping that this year is a much better year and got to buck up! :D

i wonder how come i keep having headache and feel giddy nowadays...

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