The LOVE Chapter.

.Wednesday, April 30, 2008

I really need some breathing space
The remaining papers are suffocating me alive
There's so much to study and things to memorise
Worst of all, the expectations are high
I can cope no more i guess
I think im just too stressed up you know
My mind is like blank when the papers started
Is like i totally forgot what i learnt before hand
Really cannot make it
Sisi, chill.
Let it easy
can i?

10:41:00 PM

.Sunday, April 27, 2008

昨夜望着天的我,
眼泪又不听话了.
Keep holding on to the tears in my eyes
Somehow i still failed to do so
But still i manage to hold on some

MYE starts tomorrow!
I have yet to complete copying all the notes!
And i got no faith in myself for the exam..
Trying my best to burn midnight oil
I want a least 4 'A's for this MYE
My resolution for 2008
Do you still remember what is it?
Is it possible?
Later going Lemon's house to mug :D
Hoho :D
Ciaos~

Dont tell me you understand
For i dont think you understooded
Is not i didnt gave you chance
Is you missed the chances i had given
Its too late now
You are too hard to grip onto

11:34:00 AM

.Saturday, April 19, 2008

Okay im like so damn busy recently
MYE coming in less than 10 days time
Guess what,
I have yet to touch my books for revision
And i have been failing all my tests larh
So is like yea, what the hell
I need to do damn good my my MYE
So that i can pass
But it is like impossible larh huh :XX
Annual camp also approaching
Which is kind of giving me a headache?
Im blur and slow larh so is like yea >,<

Destiny is in the hand of God
All we can do is obey and accept
Even if it is not a good one
We still must bear with it

1:39:00 AM

.Saturday, April 12, 2008

Yo! :D
okay im bored :/
and i dont know what to blog also xD
oh ya guess the meaning of this car plate {:

SBC 1188 X
can guess it? :D
Hahas.

SBC -> Saved By Christ
1188 -> Psalms 118:8 (center verse in the bible)
X -> Cross

Hahas.
cool right?
This is my form teacher's car plate number
And she told the class the meaning of it
Lols
Kay larh shall stop here
Ciaos~ :D

3:41:00 PM

.Tuesday, April 8, 2008

I been thinking hard and deep recently
Thinking why is it so hard to walk this path
People around me starts to give up on it
Was once on hot fire but now as cold as ice
This shouldn't turn up this way, isn't it?
But is also very easy to fall off the pit, isn't it?

I admit i gave up on it
The truth fails me and i fall
Action acts louder than words
I guess no one would denied?
Maybe you will say give it one more try than
Failure is a step to success
But than did you hear this phrase before
One bitten twice shy
I had given too many chances
Each time i try again the devil did the same
But stronger and stronger each time
They are simply too powerful to battle off
Some people will say
This is the time you should rely him the most
But it's also the hardest to rely
Do you know that?
Maybe i'm just too stubborn to give it another try
Maybe it's my fault causing all these to happen
Or is it maybe i'm just thinking too much

I no longer fit to become a "adviser"/"counselor"
Because i'm not a good example
I can tell others what to do
But not myself
This is me.
I really wished to say out my problems
But i simply can't
I'm just like a very pretty and shinny apple
But inside is sour and rotten.

9:22:00 PM

.Saturday, April 5, 2008

Reality I HATE you.
I really hate you.

God, you are doing it way too much!
You should know i cant handle all these.
You are giving me too much challenges at one go.
And i really cannot handle it. Especially on my own.
Please stop. Please.
Please stop playing with me.
Can you?

NPCC, squad CI changed.
It's all finalized. What's more can we say?
It's as expected who it's going to be.
First time, i dont feel like going for NPCC training.
Too scared to see what's going to happen.. :/

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Studies, hopeless and gone case. I cant focus in class.
Ended up i dont know what teacher is teaching.
Say goodbye to my CA2 and MYE.
And i cant tahan my class any longer.
They are simply too...!!! ARGGGG @_@
**** UP.

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Family, i really dont know what to say anymore.
It's like...!!!
I'm so not looking forward to visit my mum tomorrow.
Im too scared to see her condition.
And Im afraid i will cry..

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Church, no comment.
I will just stop going.
Unless minyi going.

I may seems normal.
But im not.
Serious.

Sometimes, i just feel like jumping down the buliding and end my life
But i dont have the courage to

10:38:00 PM

.Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Tell me all these were just a dream.

Mid-year exams arriving in 27 days ._.
Mon 28th April - English Paper 1 & 2
Tues 29th April - Chinese Paper 1 & 2
Mon 5th May - Social Studies & Maths Paper 1
Tues 6th May - Pure Biology
Wed 7th May - Geography & Pure Physics
Thur 8th May - Pure Chemistry & Maths Paper 2
Fri 9th May - A Maths

With my sucky CA1 results like this >.<''
English - 48
Chinese - 64
A Maths - 55
Maths - 50
Biology - 43
Chemistry - 74
Physics - 39
Combined Humanities - 40

All I'm aiming for is all pass for CA2
&& 4 'A's for Mid-year.
Is it possible? ._.

Upcoming activities '_'
19 April: Speech Day
30 May - 1 June: Annual Camp
19 June - 21 June: Survival Camp

Everything happened just like a lightning strike.
Unpredicted and expected.
I'm hurt.
But I'm too numb to cry.
It simply just tear-less tears.
I'm still alright (:

10:48:00 PM

SNAPPING.

10:29:00 PM